Things to Celebrate

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2nd year alfalfa coming along nicely

2018 is off to a good start for us, the rain started just hours after finishing up seeding the cash crops. We still have some green manure plowdown to seed (an oat/pea mix) but the rain is a welcome break. This year we are growing wheat, oats, peas, rye, and alfalfa.
We planted a big garden this year, which I’m very excited about. We didn’t plant much of one last year because of my poor health and the busy spring, and boy did we miss it! I can’t wait to go pick fresh lettuce and herbs, or dig new potatoes for supper.

 
We’ve had lots to celebrate this spring, as we have three new nieces! Nolan’s twin nieces, Nyla and Farah, were born in April, and my niece was born in May. Little Gwenyth decided to come right in the midst of seeding so we haven’t made it down to Edmonton to meet her yet, but I’m absolutely dying to see her and my nephews! I’m hoping we can swing a visit next week.

 
My brother, Keegan, graduated from grade twelve last Friday. Nolan had finished seeding the wheat at 3 am that morning, so even more reason to celebrate! We are very proud of Keegan, he plans to work for a year and then go to Grande Prairie Regional College to begin his academic journey towards becoming a “wicked chemistry teacher.” He already has a good knack for teaching, as he has had some experience tutoring. I think he will do very well. I’m so proud of him and the person he has become, there were definitely a few feelings leaking out of the corners of my eyes when he walked up to receive his diploma.

Something else to celebrate – my health has been improving (knock on wood). I have been working hard for a long time now to learn to manage my symptoms and I feel like there is finally a tangible difference! I still have my bad days, (that’s why I decided to write today instead of work in the garden), but they are fewer and less severe than they were in the winter. Last winter a “bad pain day” meant I was in bed most of the day and needed pain pills to be able to walk to the bathroom. Now my “bad” days mean I’m maybe not doing physical work but I’m still able to make a meal or two and I can walk without pain killers, usually!

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Fall Rye heading out already!

On my good days I have been able to help service equipment, garden, do yardwork, bookwork, run meals out to the field, mow, and do parts runs. I’m a lot slower than the old me and it’s still not as much as I’d like, but it’s an enormous improvement over this time last year. I’m being careful to pace myself and not get too excited and overdo it, but already I am absolutely gleeful that I am able to get outside and work and move my body. I feel like I am making gains every day, and I can feel and see my body getting stronger again. I’m excited to not be so sick and cooped up this summer, I think it’s going to be a good one!

 

Harvest 2017 has wrapped up, and with 95% of our crops in the bins, we can’t complain. It’s so much better than last year!

 

As usual, it has been a busy season. The early snow last year left us with some combining and piles of discing to do this spring. All the rain in May and June also made for stressful seeding but we made it through. Now with the wet harvest it looks like we’ll be in the same boat with some of the discing next spring, but that’s ok, at least our crops aren’t out under the snow this winter!

 

Now the focus is to haul bales, and move some grain. I am not much help with that this year. I like to write about the farm, our successes and failures, and what we’re up to. What I have been meaning to write about and just haven’t wanted to, is my health. But if this blog is about “Authentic Farming, Authentic Living,” then I think it’s time to talk more about the “Living.”

 

In the middle of harvest last year, I was in an accident on the highway and rolled my truck. I came out with some bruises and a mild concussion. I spent most of the winter recovering from what I thought at first was just shock and stress on my body from the accident, but things kept getting worse. In April of this year I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia.

 

Fibromyalgia is a central nervous system disorder. It’s characterized by widespread pain and fatigue. This pain can look like sore muscles, stiff joints, headaches, nerve pain, and skin pain (allodynia). Fibro can also cause sensitivities to certain foods, smells, and environments, as well as cognitive impairment, known as “fibrofog.” The exact cause is unknown, although recent studies have shown that it might be related to extra nerve fibres in the extremities of fibromyalgia patients, and it is the overactivity of these nerves that causes circulation issues and pain.

 

I could go on, but you get the picture. Basically, it’s been a rough year health-wise. In between farming and on rainy days, Nolan and I have been searching for some relief for my body, going to doctor appointments, naturopaths, physio, acupuncture, and even going to Edmonton for injections in the nerve bundles along my spine.

 

The nerve pain in my legs has been particularly debilitating for me, as it makes it difficult for me to operate the pedals on the tractors or trucks. Thus, my field-time this year has been limited to things that don’t involve too much use of pedals, like swathing and combining.

 

I am slowly learning to adjust my life around fibromyalgia, and with a lot of trial and error, I think I am starting to get somewhere. This, however, is not somewhere I ever thought I’d be. I never pictured myself having to stop combining to go soak my body in Epsom salts, or for that matter not being able to combine at all because I literally can’t climb the ladder.

 

The frustration and added stress that my illness has caused all of us is evident. I don’t recall any of us looking as tired at the end of harvest as we do this year. Therefore, my goals for this winter are to make educating myself and managing this illness my first priorities. The cold weather lately has made my symptoms worse, but I’m readjusting and my body will catch up soon. By the time spring work rolls around again, I want to ready to disc and harrow and have farming be my priority again. It’s hard to feel like a farmer when most days you are unable to actively farm. I try to stay involved by doing bookwork and little jobs that aren’t too physically demanding, but it just isn’t the same as being out there every day.

 

Being unable to work on the farm as much as I’d like to has given me a fresh perspective on how very lucky we are. How fortunate are farmers, to not only have a front-row seat, but to also be a stage-manager for growing healthy food? I think if we are the stage-managers, then nature is the director, deciding when it rains or shines, or how the wind blows. I’ll be happy when I’m back in the front row.

You aren’t alone.

I just finished reading my last post, “Organic Inspection is Done!!” and the last paragraph had Nolan and I both giggling and shaking our heads:

“This year’s tour was very enjoyable since our inspector was so enthusiastic, he even said our crops are the best he’s seen this year so far! We are pretty pleased with them too, the rain was timed perfectly with our seeding this year and some of our rotation decisions are working out great! Everything is a beautiful deep green, which means there’s lots of nitrogen in the soil. Things are also maturing early, which means a nice early harvest!”

Oh how naive we were! The phrase, “a nice early harvest” seems especially innocent now.

It is now the second week of November, and harvest is still nowhere near complete. Like so many farmers in Western Canada this year, we have had a wet, snowy, frustrating autumn. Anything that we have managed to combine so far has had to be run through the grain dryer before going into storage, and we have only had a handful of days where the weather conditions were good and we weren’t dealing with breakdowns.

Going into this, I knew that farming would be a tough career at times. I prepared myself for that. However, when I was looking out on our field of wheat (beautiful wheat, that we were so proud of) covered in 3 inches of wet snow . . . I have no words to describe that feeling.

The ground has been so wet at the farm that it’s been nearly three weeks since we’ve been able to do any significant amount of field work. Even discing hasn’t been possible most days, it’s just too muddy. We’ve been busying ourselves with drying grain and maintenance and marketing, ready to jump back on the combines the moment conditions are better.

We are hopeful yet, the past several days we’ve had a lovely chinook blowing through, melting snow and drying things out a little. If it keeps blowing like this, or else gets really cold without snow, then we still have a chance at getting the crops off.

Sometimes when I talk about weather now, I feel like a particularly finicky customer at a restaurant: “I’ll take a week of sun and warm winds for an appetizer, followed by a large helping of very cold, hard frost and breezy evenings, perfect for freezing the muddy fields and finishing combining. Please HOLD THE SNOW!”  

Talk about picky! If I don’t get exactly what I ordered, we still have options for harvest. We are researching winter combining, and if worst comes to worst, we still may be able to combine in the spring. If we are unable to finish discing because of the mud and snow, then we can work those fields in the spring and plant some later crops next year with a shorter growing season (probably barley, and perhaps hemp – I’m researching that possibility this week). Some of these solutions aren’t the most ideal, but it helps a lot to talk about our options. I worry less.

This post has been a long time coming. I have been putting it off and wondering what to say, because I so want to keep a positive dialogue going when I talk about farming. I still want to smile when I talk about my career, and I want to communicate to people how beautiful I think a life in agriculture can be. This season though, I am disappointed that I have found it hard to find that silver lining.

I thought about only writing about the positive things in this post, but decided that just wouldn’t be real or helpful to anyone. When I think about what has brought comfort to me lately, the biggest thing has been remembering that we’re not alone.

When Mother Nature threatens your pay cheques for the entire year, it somehow helps to know that you’re not the only person she’s picking on!

The morale of our fellow farmers in the Peace Country is low, too. With only 50-60% of crops harvested in the area, we aren’t the only ones feeling frustrated. I do notice though, a lovely sense of camaraderie among the farmers that I talk to. We all feel for each other and know that each of us is doing our very best.

Thus, this post is my part in supporting other farmers who may be struggling this year. Especially new farmers, like us, who don’t have a few tough harvests under their belts yet. I’m going to say what I’ve been hearing, and wanting to hear all season:

“We get it, it sucks, you’re not the only ones, and you still have options. Don’t give up!” 

Here’s hoping we get what we ordered weather-wise, and that we’ll remember there is always another farmer across the table.

10 Things I Learned In Our First Year Farming

What a difference a year makes! We just finished spring seeding here and with the recent moisture we’ve found some time for rest and have been reflecting on how different this farm season has been going so far.

This time last year, we were only just settling into our new life on the farm, and full of anxiety and uncertainties. While we still have much yet to learn, I really feel like Nolan and I are beginning to become more confident in our capabilities. We still often go to Dad with questions and are always, always researching, but I think having made it through one year, just knowing we can, makes all the difference in the world. I feel like we have learned so much in the past year, so I thought I’d summarize some of the lessons that I want to remember throughout this season to keep me focused, healthy, productive, and happy! Here they are, in no particular order:

10 Things I Learned In Our First Year Farming:

1. There will always be questions.

At about this time last year, I was feeling silly and incapable simply for not knowing more. How could I have grown up on the farm my entire childhood and still have so many questions!? Certainly I must not have paid enough attention or not retained enough information!

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Setting the combine, fall 2015.

When I think back, my parents had lots of questions about farming when I was growing up, too. I remember conversations like: “This field first, or that field first? . . . Should we seed barley or rye there? . . . How to we get rid of this weed? Is the flax ripe enough to combine? . . . Should we try harrowing one more time?” 

They questioned things, they tried things, they figured out what worked and learned from what didn’t. With the start of this season, I am reminding myself that questions are a good thing – good farmers ask questions!

***Another thing we learned is “Yes, you can Google that!”

2. Don’t worry about things you can’t control (like the weather).

Farming is a lesson in humility. When your crop’s success or failure is dependent on whatever mother nature decides to do, you have to learn not to worry.

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Snow in May, 2016

Last year, I prayed fervently for rain. I dreamt about rain and woke up in the middle of the night, disappointed when there was no sound of it on the roof. I would have done a rain dance if I knew how. I stressed about it, a lot.

We didn’t get as much as would have been ideal, but we got enough. This year, even though the spring started out even dryer than last, I was much calmer. I realized how much energy I had wasted worrying about rain, and then hail, and then snow! What is the point? Why let the weather (something you can’t control) disturb your peace (something you can control)? It really is simpler than we make it.

3. Take it one day at a time, and stay flexible.

No two days are alike. Some days we wake up with a plan and I get to cross everything off my to-do list. Other days, our goals completely change because of a breakdown, life, or a change in weather. Again, we are not in control, even when we think we are. It’s just important at the end of the day to look back on what you did accomplish and the knowledge you gained, even if it didn’t exactly match up with your plans. It was supposed to happen the way it did today, and when plans change it’s a good reminder that we won’t ever feel bored!


4. Health first, farm second.

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In a sling during haying – poor timing!

This is a lesson I learned the hard way last year. From a 3-month-long bout of bronchitis in the spring, an injured shoulder during haying, and vertigo and a sprained ankle during harvest, I have learned this lesson! I went into seeding this spring with a newly developed allergy to animal proteins, so I am preparing myself to practice putting my health first this year. I don’t know how many productive days I lost last year simply by not taking rest when I needed it, and pushing my body too far.

5. Take breaks.

When your job is just footsteps outside your front door, and the to-do list seems never-ending, it can be hard to learn how to balance things. With my old nine-to-five job it was easy to leave work at work and make time to rest when I got home.

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Pin-cherries we picked on a break one afternoon last summer.

With farming however, it’s so easy to get caught up in overwhelm and I have caught myself more than once in the past year working steady instead of working smart. Working smart, I have discovered, means taking breaks regularly so that you are more rested and focused on working more productively. When I think of this I will always remember the all-nighter I spent baling last summer. Covered in hay dust, exhausted and cranky at about 4 am, I stopped tractor and shut it down completely. I took about 10 minutes and stood outside drinking tea from my thermos and taking in the beautiful night. I listened to the wind rustling the trees and let myself become mesmerized by the starry sky as I lapped up deep breaths of the pungent green scents of the field. I went back to my tractor focused, refreshed, and peaceful, and was able to bale faster and with even less plug-ups than before! This seems a simple lesson, and one that I thought I knew already, but it made it’s way onto this list because I have learned that it is incredibly important to remember as a farmer.

6. Always, always appreciate.

It’s no secret that farming can be stressful. The best way I have learned to cope with this is to count our blessings every day. It is so easy to focus on what goes wrong, even when there is so much that works out just right. The perfect timing of the rains this spring; a sale falling through, for an even better one to come along the next week. Even something as simple as spotting a broken bolt on a piece of equipment, saving us from a much more difficult repair if it had been left unnoticed. There is so much to be thankful for!

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7. Language matters.

This relates back to my last point, and it astounds me some days at the difference it makes. I touched on this in my previous blog post about creating positive language around farming, and it is something that I think about all the time.

I have noticed that the day-to-day language we use around the challenges and successes of farming can influence the level of stress vs. appreciation in our lives immensely. Something as small as “Wow the flax is coming in really nice in the lower spots” vs. “It’s too dry on the hills, the flax needs more moisture, damn this drought” can totally determine the outlook for the rest of the day, and type of language one uses can influence the people around you. It’s not just about being appreciative, but also about communicating that appreciation to the people you’re working with. Just being aware of our language and level of appreciation around farming every day is the first step in changing how the farm lifestyle is viewed in general. Talk about what you appreciate!

8. Keep organized, and make lists.

I make lists to keep track of everything from which field should be worked next, to what meals to make and freeze before we get busy with haying. Keeping organized is absolutely necessary for me to defeat any feelings of overwhelm. Right now I am working on my comprehensive to do list for the summer, with all the tasks rated by priority, all to be transferred onto a dry erase board for easy updating. 🙂

9. Look back.

I have been so grateful for the wealth of information that old farm diaries have provided. I keep the more recent ones (2007 and later) on-hand in a shelf in my living room.

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Whenever I’m feeling discouraged, I can study them and realize how much this farm has come through, and look at how my parents problem-solved and experimented to make things work. It’s a good reminder that challenges are part of farming, as is the constant learning.

10. You can actually fall in love with a career.

I have never felt quite the way I do about farming about pretty much anything else in my life. When I say “I love farming,” I actually get a tickling achey feeling in my chest. When I am in the field on my hands and knees digging around for germinated seeds, the glee I feel while furrowing my fingers under the soil is totally encompassing. Every time I dump a truck or combine and watch the river of grain pouring out, I am filled with a sense of accomplishment and pride. When I work a field and watch the bright green turn to dark, fresh soil and see the ravens flock behind me, peace overwhelms me. Nothing has ever given me the same satisfaction as farming does. 

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2016 Wheat